
I really feel down this past few days.. Stressed, bored, homesick, depressed? Hay, I don't wanna be like this anymore pero I'm going back to my old self again (I can't help it), my mind is so tired of thinking a lot (mga wala naman kwenta), I guess this is more of a homesick..
Sa araw na ito mga couple of times na kong umiyak because of too much sadness. First, my sister who's working in Ireland went back home to visit my family, I should be there too, but I can't :( You know what I'm doing now? I try to talk to my family on the phone as much as I can it makes me feel like I'm there too. How I wish malapit lang ang lugar ko sa kanila, para mawala tong sadness ko. So tired of thinking too kung matutuloy ako sa pag-uwi ko next year sa amin, I have too much concern regarding this, isa pa din siguro ito kung bakit ako ganito.. I am really hoping matuloy, I miss my family sooo much :( Tapos I felt bad pa on my BF, ewan ko ba madalas nasama loob ko sa kanya, may nagbago kasi eh pero he's telling me wala daw, di nya siguro nakikita. I'm glad I have my friends that I can talk to whenever I'm like this kundi baka maloka ako and ofcourse si God na di nagsasawa sa akin.
I know prayer is the best answer for all of these, need one from you :) Thanks!